Six years ago I developed a wicked case of insomnia. In the end I have to take two Serotonin upticks and two benzodiazepines just to fall asleep. Failure to take the medication will leave me awake for 72+ hours.
Four years ago I developed a bad brain fog. I am slow to recall events. I produce bogus data; not sure if I am storing bogus memories or I am recalling random bogus memory.
The last two years I have started to have visions that I know do not exist. Eg. I would swear I saw a Black Ford F150 making a left turn. My wife comments it is not a truck. I double down and swear it is a truck; it was a black Trailblazer. Today, I swore there was a dog behind my friend.There was no dog around within the house. I really don't know how to tackle this. I have been through four years of x-rays, CT, CT with and without contrast, MRIs. Last week I had almost two dozen scans and like the previous four years nothing is jumping out. To say I am disappointed is to put it mildly.
Back in the day I worked on Sun Microsystems, Veritas Clustering, EMC Storage, and a large array of Sun Midrange systems. After that I pivoted to Red Hat and earned my RHCSA and RHCE. I have read through the manuals for Ansible, OpenStack,...
I am missing huge gaps of knowledge. I am debating starting my homelab over and relearn everything. It is so hard to concentrate and it feels like I take a week to absorb something that should take at most a few hours. E.g. I spent almost three days learning subnetting. And, that is at least six hours each day.
Four years ago I developed a bad brain fog. I am slow to recall events. I produce bogus data; not sure if I am storing bogus memories or I am recalling random bogus memory.
The last two years I have started to have visions that I know do not exist. Eg. I would swear I saw a Black Ford F150 making a left turn. My wife comments it is not a truck. I double down and swear it is a truck; it was a black Trailblazer. Today, I swore there was a dog behind my friend.There was no dog around within the house. I really don't know how to tackle this. I have been through four years of x-rays, CT, CT with and without contrast, MRIs. Last week I had almost two dozen scans and like the previous four years nothing is jumping out. To say I am disappointed is to put it mildly.
Back in the day I worked on Sun Microsystems, Veritas Clustering, EMC Storage, and a large array of Sun Midrange systems. After that I pivoted to Red Hat and earned my RHCSA and RHCE. I have read through the manuals for Ansible, OpenStack,...
I am missing huge gaps of knowledge. I am debating starting my homelab over and relearn everything. It is so hard to concentrate and it feels like I take a week to absorb something that should take at most a few hours. E.g. I spent almost three days learning subnetting. And, that is at least six hours each day.
